aLiN's bLoG

Im back

2006-12-25T01:50:00.000-08:00

greetings dear bloggers..im back..hee..
well im super duper lazy to elaborate on wad has been goin on lately..
somehw i wanna forget abt all those bitter memoirs..
my new year resolution is to embark on a new pace of life..
be a good gerl and be a humble mother and most importantly be more responsible..
hawdy coolness! haha..
my baby boy has turned 7 mths and nw his teeth is growing..
cute isnt it? but definately he's more likely to move ard nw and guess wad?
i tink i'll loose a few pounds in tyme to cum.. lol
ok guys im hitting the bed nw..
take good care orite..
im missing u guys!!!!
dadaa...

2006-11-12T21:12:00.000-08:00

hello peeps...
its been daes since i've last updated...
lazy laaa....keke!

ok im here to announce tat i'll not b updating again coz i'll be moving house...
to somewhere...tk leh bilang...lol!
life is very complicating sakk...
one min a person is nice to u...for all u noe,they cn turn their bcks on u w/o u noticing it...
im seriously sick and tired of those hypocrites uh...
im gonna leave for gd uh.. im not gonna elaborate any further...
i just hate em laaaaaaaaaa....
i'll wait patiently for u to get a child den i'll torture them the way u did to me..
call me heartless call me insane..! i dun care...
y im leaving?
coz i cnt bare to live in this hell of a house no more...
im freaking out! i swear!
til we meet again..
toodles!
do take care...
( Psst! im missing Fazli...
*sob*)

2006-11-06T09:06:00.000-08:00

tdae penat gilerr...sumpah!
haha...went to marina square,grab ma slippers and tops..
den off to causeway point's kiddy palace...
bought a baby walker for my son...hee...
plus his milk and evryting la...
bnyk u noe nk pikol!!

as soon as ma sisi return frm buying ma son's milk...
fazli pon timbol...walao..ako dgn lincahnyer cabot...
kwn2 dier was like ''wee wiittt''....
maken cpt ako jln kao...
hahha...da dpt tgk muker dier...
telepas la rindu...lol
cute uh!!!!!!!!!!!
ntah la...wadever la...
kalo dpt kawen ngn dier tkper...kekekekeke...
citer2 tinggi...lol

to my one and onli breastie...
i love u too la...no worries...
ur entry was reali touching man...
ko mmg tk abes2 buat ako nanges...keke...
tanx sweets...and paisey eh..psl ako ko kene grounded...
feel like slapping myself sey...
take care k??
gd luck for the o's...
missssss u very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

k la till den...
toodles!

2006-11-06T01:23:00.000-08:00

well hello guys...me goin out later with kak lynda...
maybe meeting jack later in the nite... itupon kalo kak lynda nk bwk uh...
jack yg nk jumpe...bleah~~wadever...cnt be bothered...
but im sure tat im goin causeway point alrite!
smangat kebabian dokk.....
tapii mungen mlm siket coz goin twn firz...
wanna go M)phosis (sowie uh kalo salah spelling) buying slippers; goin Mango buyin tops...
and of coz wanna get my son a walker...haha...
shop till u drop babey!
hee...

wish me luck la korg!!!!
Ohh kanda Fazli......nantikn kedtgngn adinda....wakakakakakaka....
asmara ini yg hanyutkn kita....
asmara ini yg hanyutkn aku....
LOL

i'll update wen i balek kk??
toodles!

smiles

2006-11-05T09:56:00.000-08:00

hee...pls dun mind the crap tittle...
gosh im dead beat...
the family chalet was quite ok la...
it turned out better the day after coz my cousin brought his xbox games and we played it like crazyyyyyyy...
laughing our ass out...wakakaka...fun sey...
soon after we got bored of the games and we played 'taiti'...
tu lagii kecoh sakk... LoL
*ira tanx fer cumin yar?*

k enuf bt tat......

well just nw at 8.30 pm went to wdlnds to get money...
den went to causeway point...
haiz...cn i tun bck tyme plsssssssssssssss???
lol...
i went to Samuel and Kevin again and bought two tops...
pink kaler...hehe...
and u noe wad? the guy whom laughed at me last mth was werking!!
hee...(ira,u noe who im toking abt)
cute la he...and his name is Fazli...
i din make the payment coz i dun want to b caught on act la...
takot nanti tgk muker dier tk lps paisey uuuuu!
keke...

den after tat my dear sister wanted to eat long john...
bt den it was 10.00pm already...heng uh still open...
i waited and waited for at least twenty mins...
den hor tat Fazli came passing by...
tepranjat berok dok...bt i managed to act cool...hehe...
he and his colleagues were outside smoking whereas im waiting for ma sis...
den hor tis mat wit his fren whose age was probably ard 21? i tink soo la...
i was entertaining my son wen i realise he looked at me...
i frowned and u noe wad? he smile at me la sak..
senyom alek la ape nk buat kn...
den wen he wanna brambos he smiled again and waved at my baby...
lol! anak ako lagii leh senyom! baik uh...

ahhhh...den uh i went outside cosway near the tongsampah and smoked...
skali ako pusing Fazli ngn kwn2 dier pt blakang...baik uh...
mal la sayer...he kept looking at me...his frens were pushing him and all...i noe he wanna tok to me...i cn sense it...
haha...bt wad to do..ako gdn lincahnyer tompang lalu and brambos...
bt i managed to turn bck and smile at him though...he gave tat dissapointed yet sweeet smile....
walao..he was dammmnnn cute laaaaaaa...
bodoh kn ako?!! tkpe...biler2 bleh return...tapii obviously nk kene beli baju lagii kn??
mamposs ako...tkpe2...bleh2..no prob!!
wish me luck k korg??
keke...

enuf said...
nk tdo! cnfrm nari tdo senyom sakk...
haha!

2006-11-02T00:55:00.000-08:00

gd day everyone...
well yeah pls dun mind my uncompleted blog...
coz its under construction...(i guess) *giggle*

To tat someone...pls read and understand....
u may find me outgoing and all but hey,tats fake...seriously...
my type of person is actually someone who is very self-kept esp to strangers...
i'll not reveal aniting abt my life and all...
i'll not meet someone i dunnoe onli after a few hrs of talking...
i hate hanging on the fone...
i hate mushiness...
(wadever it may sound like la eh as long as korg tau ape ako maksodkn sdh)
i'll not show my feelings for tat someone eventhough i noe i like him...
knowing me will onli increase ur blood pressure...haha
im not the kinda gerl who likes to go bilek and all...
(pardon me but im not discriminating or wadsoever)
Im not the Night-life gerl...(maybe soon uh...kuang kuang kuang!)
++plusss++
im foul-tempered...u wun like it...
if u still wanna b frens with me den prepare for heartaches and migranes...
if u dun wish to,ur saving ur life frm trouble...
its nice knowing u dy.....wakakakakakakakaka....

ok enuf nw abt my outing yesterday! hell yeah it was damn fun siaaa...
i swear i've nvr felt like tat before...
suddenly i felt tat i love em more...hee...
im sorry if my jokes were a bit kasar...
i just cudnt stop blabering la~~ and the rest just cudnt stop laughing~~
Hijao!! kekekekekekekekekekeke....
tanx u guys for making a dae sooo fun...
tanx for cumin dwn ek sume...esp si Flubber ngn adk dier Mastura Ahmad....
and nt forgetting yana who changed her mind to actually go for the outing....
to Rahim khanna... eh salah...ira spydey...for tolerating the `jokes'...LOL
haiza tanx for the pizza...yumyum...
nana im damn sorry for making so much noise at ur crib...sedapkn suare ako smlm?
mcm S jibeng ader? dgn microphone ko mcm gitu..power uh babe! kekekeke...
i wun go nana's hs again uh...coz her mum wanna kidnap my son...*blueks*
so damn fun siaa...a day tat wud be embedded alwaes...

well....
family chalet tmr! weee~~~~ ira! im counting on u! bsk mao watai uh jack! ok?!
kao mmg suker! hee...
but the sad ting is tat after the chalet,mane ako nk gi dok sia? tepi longkang ker?
kesian kn ako? haix...
HELP ME GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!
*sob* kalo ade lobang psl umah ke pape do tag ehh...
ur help is much appreciated...nanti ako blanjer air batu...

till den...
take care!

Disasterous Hari Raya

2006-10-29T19:52:00.000-08:00

Good Morning....

How's Hari Raya everyone? hopefully it was fine alrite...
dun ask abt mine! mine was disasterous enuf...
This year's Raya was such a pain...
if onli i cud jump out the window,tat will be just fine...

atok is now at Johor with my aunt and will be staying dere ever since...
im reali worried for him...seriously...
the fact tat Cik Yam (my aunt who wanted my baby) threw him out of the house simply makes
me speechless....
why make a scene in everyone's presence wen they visit onli once every 2 years?
why cnt u just treasure the moment of togetherness tat is lost after Arwah Nenek meninggal?
why must u be soooooooo rude to atok??
if onli i had a rotito in my hand...i wud gladly slice u up into pieces and den feed the dogs...
u are too westernized till u forgot where u belong...
till u forgot wad is 'adat'...
*roll-eyes*

so now tat wicked witch is finally happy nw tat my atok, my sis and me are not staying at her crib...
i wanna see for hw long will her happiness lasts...
there is still such thing as karma...remember?
*sinister smile*

everione is turning their bcks on me...
even the one i trusted soo much among my relatives...
for once she told me to start my own life and all...
but nw she was asking me to go bck to my mum...
why didnt u ask me to go bck earlier setan!!!!!
sunggoh bodoh.com...

i cnt bare to see my younger sis in the care of someone else...
coz hell yeah im the one who cn tolerate her being like a hungry ghost!
she has a huge appetitte... *giggle*

so nw im reali confused plus blurr plus goin insane plus restless.......
my sister and i are gonna be seperated...
my aunts suggested tat i go bck to my mums place...
fuck la...korg tk paham keaadan ako belo...
kalo mak ako orgnyer ok siang2 ako da cabot dok ngn mak ako tkyah disuro...
den fifa its either kak siti jage or mak ngah...
haix...

cik yam,seriously...wad in the werld are u tinking,ballz....
isit sooooo rong just to help us?
i cn pay the utility bills if u want me to...
and atok's at Johor...atok wud be too dissapointed to cum and visit us in Singapore...
plus.............................
seeing ur attitude was such a pain... u were like a mad cow...
dun blame me if i treat u in the same manner...coz tats the example u've shown for us wad...
quarelling among siblings wen ur all already sooooooo old....
being sooooo vulgar with each other.........
im living like a place called Hell!

i'll pray tat my late grandma wud cum alive one day and strangle her to death...
tat day will be victory for me!!!!! hahahahaha....

i really dono wad to do...
mite as well jump of the window and end ur life rite if u cnt live it happily.....
wen the pple ard u are all like shit...

oh yar! to my dear frens who are taking O levels good luck eh....
study hard peeps...
hee...

i cnt stand it...sooner or later i'll be out of tears and i'll suffer frm dehyderation....
every single day i cry myself to sleep tinking of wad life wud bring me nxt and why must i face such matters at the this age...why am i not granted happiness?
haix...
u peeps take care...
i better go before i start crying...
c**,)

Dreaming away

2006-10-26T01:43:00.000-07:00

hey ya....
it has been raining this few days eh..?
and tis is reali good wen u hit the bed...
hehehehe...

suppose to meet ira tdae but den she say at nite...
i cnt la belo...ako dudok umah org...
kalo umah ako anytime babe! understand k?
hee...muahh...

ok i've yet to describe the environment of kak siti's place...
before i moved in she say she found my room kinda empty even after furnishing and stuff...
ya rite! it has a sofa...a mattress..study table with the lappy on it... cd player& the telephone...
simple yet nice la...i mean i din expect aniting...im grateful as it is tat she's willing to help me...
her crib i would describe is as cosy and artistic type of house...
the walls are painted black and white...coolness...
coz husband and her onli loves black and white! even the toilet is in black...
cis cis cis... keke... unique kn..? lol
tanx kak siti and abg zul for everiting...
i hav no idea hw in the werld wud repay ur kind gesture...
tanx eh! lots of love!!!!
nothing much happened tdae...
its onli tat im HUNGRY lar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha...

tmr will be goin to ikea...with kak siti...
u guys pray for me tat i'll not run into mummy k??

ok la...my adk da beli kn mkn...
malas nk masak...bkn ape...i dono hw to bukak the stove la!
diam ok! hehe...
taking care!
jempot mkn sume....

Pissed!

2006-10-25T00:59:00.000-07:00

hey dere guys...
feeling very tensed up at the moment...
very very indeed...

dono why uh eh...
seems like my best fren nw is slowly changing...
she's more ignorant nwadays...more to guys...
dun seem to b bothered abt my probz...
like the other tyme,i was utterly pissed wen her response was onli a mere
'Haizz...' and she went to tok on the fone wit a fren of hers...
i cried oK! its reali upsetting uh...seriously... u urself noe hw crucial my state of life is...
u noe the best abt my bckgrnd den the other frens & tats the precise reason y u are called my best fren...
ur the onli fren i cared the most...
ur the onli fren i cried for...
ur the onli fren i cn make sacrifises for...
ur the one who cn fill me in with fun peace and laughter...
ur the onli one i expected to b dere for me alwaes...
ur the onli one i turn to since i dun hav a ting called 'family'...
tat makes u my best fren, my sister and a part of my faimly....

pardon me coz im tearing as im posting tis enrty...
i dono wad went rong....
mayb if u read this confessions of mine onli den u'll tend to realise hw much u mean to me and hw much i value and treasure our frenship,dearest....

OR maybe its nuthin....maybe its my fault...mayb im just being too emotional?
maybe im being way too sensitive?
if its may fault,i owe u a million apologies...
but im just voicing out my opinion...
if i keep mum...i fear it'll turn worse as the anger and hatred will grow...
but by this way...i dun fell such hatred or wadsoever....
i feel so pure and sincere....

i hope u'll understand wad am i trying to imply...
tank u soooooooo much for being a part of my life...
i have no regrets having u as a best fren!
newaes...like i alwaes say...gd luck for ur o levels...
i very much understand tat u hav ur own way of life...
u have a family tat cares...
u have ur own desires and all...
cnfrm there's a tyme wen u nid to b alone wit ur other frens and all...
im terribly sorry for being 'greedy' and 'selfish'...

i just need someone to b dere for me alwaes...
i wana ensure tat tat person will stand by me by hook or by crook...
coz damn! i hav no one in this hell of a werld....

haizzzz....i'll stop blaberring for nw...
or else the whole house will be drowned with tears...
lame ok alin...
k den till here...
take care...
*i luv u breastie!I'll olwaes do!*

Im Back!

2006-10-22T19:38:00.000-07:00

Hey Guys....
how are the preparations for the upcumin Hari Raya?
Hope everiting will b smooth and fine aites? *winx*
well as for me...the same old shit...i feel so terribly lonely...
im not sure where is atok gonna b at during the raye...
if he wud be at wdlnds den, alhamdulillah...
if he wud b at johor den i guess we'll meet again sometime in November?
haizzz....soooooooo disasterous ok!
My cibai aunty who has just came bck frm australia is seriously getting on my nerves...
Di bulan ramadhan yg mulia ni ako berdoa kao kene langgar dgn lori balak!
serious..ako tkkn menyesalll...limit2 happie gilerr sia...

usually my son is the sort of likes to smile to everione...yar...he wud just smile widely wen he sees ur face..so the adorable~
u shud mit him...yg da jumpe tu tau la ape ako maksodkn ehhhh...
haha..
ok so i brought my son to mit tat blardy aunty of mine...
niat ako baik...tapii kn si haramjad tu~ alamakk.......
she was smiling to him doing all sorts of lame jokes and faces...
BUT my son just stood still...din even smile...nope he din...
dis is so not him! trust me... i tink he noes shes full of nonsense and tat she's like a wicked witch..
as a result of my son's quiteness,he was being called a gondol...ok it went like tis...
balrdy aunt to my son : ''u see nw wad happen?! U like gondol like tat! if u follow me cnfrm u bcum rich!''

these are very gd eg of those tai-tai who tinks they cn buy happiness wit their money...
u may hav the wealth but i dun tink u hav the skill to handle a baby...
u being complacent,arrogant,wicked to others is being watch by Him...
tats y ur not granted a child... ur 48 mind u,old woman! and yet ur childless!
still hav the cheek to take my son...
over my dead body uh! its true uh u cn ensure a bright future for him...
but i dun tink u cn luv him as much as i do...
i'll do my very best for him...dun tink im still a kiddo...
to make him happy is my aim in life...u cn go to hell...
spoiled asshole...da tue tu tobat uh siall...muke da keluar wrinkles maseh nk stepping jem...
mentang ko peh laki maksaleh,ko piker ako heran?
ur just as dumb as an illitrate...
so much of ur slang but the fact tat ur grammar and vocab sux to the core...
sometimes i wonder...why did ur husband,a PHD holder want to b married off to someone like u!
u cnt even speak gd english! hw in the werld did u face ur in laws??
dun tink ur mighty...dun tink ur smart jus bcoz u hav the cash...
hah...
anytime anywhere i cn tell u off! dun tink i fear u...to hell with u!
balasan kao uh Tuhan tk kasi ko anak... padan muke kao...pantat!

bcoz of her eh,ako bnyk tao mkn hati...nk kutok ako kutok uh...
tapi jgn kutok anak ako siol...
member tk besalah sia wai...
pukitiang korg...

i dun giv a damn to those who condemn me...
go ahead...
He knows wad is goin on and who's rite and who's rong...
agree?
to hell wit all of u ar!!! babii....

to all dear bloggers..
selamat hari raye eh...
maaf zahir dan batin...
and yana! jln raye uh tis year...plssssssss.....
nk jumpe korg...jumpe uti...
plsss....
hehe...
k la gtg...
take care aites?

Sayonara~

2006-10-19T19:42:00.000-07:00

Dearest Bloggers....

Just wanna seek ur attention....
as u've veen told,todae wud be the last dae im blogging...
so im here precisely bcoz i wanna post a farewell entry...
(mcm nk gi mane jer sakk..keke!)

Do take good care and kalo ade jodoh kiter jumpe lagii ehhh...
wakakakaka....

And I wud like to take this Golden Apportunity to wish all,
Selamat Hari Raye...
Maaf Zahir Dan Batin...

Do tag if necessary...
tanx...

WIll Be Missing U all,esp My Breastie...
with love,
aLin....

Dilemma

2006-10-18T11:39:00.000-07:00

*bows to everyone...

wadds up yaw...
and yar i wana remind u dear bloggers tat tis fridae wud b the last dae im enrtying my post...
coz i havta move out of this hell of a place...
remember? the hari raya tingie? yar...im unwanted remember?*roll eyes*
and i'll b putting up at kak ct''s place for the moment...
*applause*bow*
a million tanx for ur kind gesture kak ct...hugs & kisses..
haix...
i wanna mit my mum during the hari raya la...nk mintak maap oi!!
keke...tapi kn...kalo g sane kn cnfrm tk kembalinye waii...
tu yg menjady maksaalah besar kalo korg nk tau....
wakakakakakakakakaka.....
PLUS
if i were go bck admiralty...i bet and cnfrm tat i cnt brng my son along...
and my mom will definately b stricter den i cn ever imagine...disasterous leh.....
and u noe wad? im sick and tired of sneaking out of da house wit my innocent 5 mth old kiddo
plus his pram plus his diapers etc...
and mind u,its not near ok!!
naik cab pon...frm....
tanglin halt to admiralty leh~
aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh...tau ponnnn....
common la....stop treating me as if im 12 cn anot??
tired siakkkkk............
i hav a son for God sake!
Arghhhh!!!!
and who noes she mite even send me gerls hm?
aahhhhhhhhhhhh.....bestkn?????
mepek sey...serious...its not as if i commit any crimes or wadsoever...
its true im under ur custody but hey,dun u tink im clever enuf to fite for my rites? i'll sure to voice my say dun u worry...the years u sent me to skul wud not go dwn the drain...wakakakaka....
and im sure its sensible enuf....cnnt tell u all la! secret! blueks!! keke...

im having frequent migrane these daes uh....
mayb bnyk pikeran kot....
haix....
migrane tkpe jack tapi rambot tkmu beruban sdh....
haha...
and yar b4 i forget...

to u guys out dere...if i ever offendedu in a way or another,im terribly sory k..?
just wanna wish u guys Selamat Hari Raya...
Maap Zahir dan Batin noh~

jage diri tu baik2 hah...
nanti cek kembali cek tulis citer panjang2...
skg cek nk gi mampos...ehhh salah...gi tdo...!
tesasol pulak...

dadaaa...
*apologies for the crappiniess*
*giggles*

Happy 5 mths Dearest!

2006-10-17T03:29:00.000-07:00

*bows to everyone...

Happie 5 Mths To U~~
yar tdae is the 17th...my son turns 5 mths tdae...hee...
luv him more each dae man...he's nw sleeping wit his Bibik Fifah...
the sleeping beauties...LOL

u noe wad?
i miss my mummy!!!
yes i do...i miss her cooking...
i miss my kari telor ok!!

Mummy wherever u are do take gd care of urself ok?
baby rinduuuuuu mummy....
bkn niat baby buat nie sume...baby cume nk mummy paham
baby jer...not more than tat....
baby mintak maaf atas sgale salah silap baby...
luv u mummy...
*sob

u guys out dere pls treasure ur family...they shud b ur top priority...
tink abt it la...blood is somehw thicker than water...
unlike me...i hav noone...so those of u who swears and curses ur family members ovr slight matters
i tink u shud knock urself hard on the wall...

ok enuf said...
take care...

Unwanted

2006-10-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

i reali dunnoe wad to do...
those who are in my shoes shud noe waddahell im feeling...
torned...torned...torned...
i just heard an ultimately ``intersting news''...

ok...here goes nuthin...
u noe,getting pregnant at the age of 17 is a total disgrace wen ur family's background
happens to b tat ``educated'' & ``well-off' ' & ``mighty''....
agree? yar...
so basically im the rotten apple in the family whom is seen as a total failure....
past few mths had tis tiff wit my aunt...
she ransacked my room wen im at Mummy's place,recovering after giving birth...
upon hearing im pregnant she blew her top off and suggested tat i was better off at Pertapis
so as to straitened my paths...
ok nw u tell me...bleh guarantee ke kalo kuar jady baik? abeh kalo maken degil?
back to square one...im the one who wud b blamed for not making emends and everiting rite...?
and wen ur pregnant i tell u,all u nid is ur Family's luv,care and concern...
seriously..no kidding here...den wen i heard of wad my aunties had planned wad did u tink i was feeling?
disowned! torn! unwanted! mind u...im a human being! i have feelings...i noe to u guys im still pathetically young...BUT did u ever consider discussing the matter wit me? it does concerns me wad btw....
den wen i was suffering the afther birth effect,here at my aunt's place they happily ransacked my stuffs and read a diary of mine which happens so tat i had wrote and pour my soul out of wad i tink abt my particular aunty...after reading it she cried and msged her nonsense...she apologies and so do i...
she was hurt by wad i wrote in the diary...
nw u guys tell me...am i at fault? saper yg gatal sial gi bongkah barang aku! no fucking respect over other's property! da bongkah dahtu bace sndri mau saket hati... stupid creature!
as an adult i tink ur wise enuf to noe not to touch others property w/o permission!
trust u to b an adult but non the wiser! no matter hw crucial my situation is wit Mummy she has nvr ever bongkah my stufs siall...who are u uys to do tat?

and ok...coz of tat the whole relatives hates me...esp yg bace diary tu...
but kirekn skg da ok ngn the rest uh...cume tinggal yg satu ekor tu...
skg nk kat raye kn? i have tis tiny intention of asking for forgiveness...
den last few daes kak ct kol,pak busu angkat...
They had a conversation but i guess its not a pleasant one..
wad i noe is tat pak busu told kak ct off by saying tat she's still a kiddo to interfere such adult matters...
waddahell..she's married and is 29 years old... u guys ought to give her the benefits of an adult,stupid!
itu korg panggel bdk2 pe sia? ape kirekn korg da rase garam dulu dari kiter,kirekn ape?
kiter nk kene bute uh ikot ckp korg?
sume korg ckp kirekn btol uh psl korg tue peh psl? korg bleh relek suah jack...
tiang btol..tk penah siol ako jumpe org seunreasonable mcm korg...
(kan! i sound like a typical minarape! Argh!!Mind the language..)
and did u noe hw is it to hear tat during HAR RAYA,ur unwanted by ur own flesh and blood...
wuhoooooooo....gerek sakk...power gedegakk...
u tell me...
wad am i suppose to do?
i feel like ending my life...Demi Allah..
im even tearing as im posting tis entry..
am i tat bad? am i? y is it soooooooo hard to forgive me?
im trying very hard to mend my ways...but hw is it possible wen u guys are throwing insults and are giving werds of discouragement? why cnt i receive blessings and encouragement instead? y?!
den if i dun prosper to bcum a better person,there u guys will b, critisizing me and everiting...
y cnt u vguys make tings a lil easier for me? u guys are the problem rite nw! so infuriating!
failing in luv,getting beaten up is NOTHING compared to being unwanted by ur family...
seriously...cume Tuhan jer yg tau wad im goin thru....
tis is reali heart stabbing...

there was once pak busu say``kao tkmu piker sume syg ngn anak kao...kiter2 mmg syg...tapi ade yg benci..''
if u wanna hate me to the core,by all means go ahead...coz i noe i once a made a mistake!
but hey wad rong did my son do??
u tell me?! satu2 pakai tudung mao lebih tapi otak cm otak anjing....
dun u dare sae such tings abt my son...i'll kill u if i havto...
i dun giv a damn..try me...
isnt the werd benci too harsh for an innocent baby?
fuck u guys ok...
i wont forgive u guys...i wont...
he's my son...why is he in this werld is due to my mistake,so therefore swear and curse me all u want!!
but not my son i tell u....i dun care who u are...wadever concerns my son,im all here to protect him...
i brought him here and im the one who will b responsible fer everiting....

but as Islam...
shudnt u b forgiving? hari raye lagii siol....
furthermore kao yg tangan gatal g bace ako peh diary...sndri carik nahas,amek ko obat...
bodoh....inhuman...cruel...beastly...
tat is all i cn describe best abt u...
bukak tudong suah jack....

so guys..basically its a dwnfall fer me....
im being hated by almost everyone...
even my blood....
best kn?
wad more cn u ask for kn??????
hah!!!!!
i feel like dying.....
but think again...i live fer my one and onie son...
full stop

in one wae or another they are saying tat they are disowning me....
tambah pulak me and mummy ngah gadoh lagii...
baik peh dugaan bulan ramadhan....

Ya Tuhan tabahkan lah hati ku....
*Amin*

A Heart Felt Moment

2006-10-15T07:39:00.000-07:00

harloooo....

hehe....hav not benn updating coz im too lazy plus im wit Ira Spydey....
malas gilerr jack....
haha....
and yar,Ira im very relieved upon hearing tat u and ur family da ok...
u urself moe hw much i worried for u...
u urself noe hw much i luved u...
i reali hope if this tyme if we were to argue,we will settle it maturely...
all tat we've been thru,has made our frenship more stronger and trust me i love u more than aniting baby....hahahahaha....
tanx to ayah and ibu fer their concern,aites?
i was very touched and moved...
tanx Mahani's...
heee...

tady g 888 teman kak chomel gi buat rambot...
biase uh...nk kat raye kn jack...

den i pass by pizza hut...
tenmpk kekasih lame...
lame giler jack...
apit...terpranjat sak member biler nmpk i pushing the pram...
lol...
im not ashamed....
brani buat brani tanggong...
i dun giv a heck abt wad others may tink...
sape2 kat sane tu kalo malu ade anak kn...
i salute u with both of my middle fingers...
dorg(baby) tk besalah ok!
yg salah korg....
haha...
pe saje je lin....

haix....bilerr nie nk beli baju raye...kasot raye...contact lens lagii...
walaowey...tk sabak noh~
hee...
nk g geylang uh nxt wk...
sape2 nk ikot??????

*ATTENTION*
i wana alert the readers tat by nxt wk till ten daes after raye i'll not b blogging..
will b at my mum's place or at my cuzzie's place...

i'll update again if any interesting incidents were to happen k??
kip the taggies cumin yaww...
happie skulin and werkin guys...
take care...

Hell Of A Day

2006-10-13T05:29:00.000-07:00

harlo peeps....

i've been dwn this few days...feeling very sucky...
Ira'Spydey is meeting Faizal Spyder at the moment...
wish her luck k all??hee....

and yar...i liked tat person..(u guys shud noe who if u've read my dulu2 peh entry)yar i reali do...but waddahell..dere's a third ugly party who
is trying her very best to make tings complicated...
if u wanna compete,i dunmind...make it a healthy competiton lar...
but ur behaving like a sore loser! tellin me u and tat guy have gone out together;
u even went to bed wit him...gosh...if u feel proud abt urself,den i'll tink ur physco uh babe...
i fell sori fer u...where are ur morals? where? ur married for God sake...a mother of 2 mind u...
waddahell...u noe stupid people are against my genes...hah!
ur inferior to me..ur the one at lost not me...if u reali want him tat badly by all means go ahead,bitch!
dun make it seem like he's the onli guy in this werld..hah! come on la~~~

u guys noe wad?
i dont noe if its true or not lar~~
but she tells me tat the person i liked eventuali likes herr...
omg! i cnt bring myself to believe the crap.. realli...
coz she's pathetically UGLY!!! LOL..
inside out i mean... wakakakakaka...

wadever it is..im sick and tired of dealing wit inmature people...
i tink im gonna forget abt him so as to make tat bitch shut up..
yar..tats wad im gonna do alrite...u cn hav him nw idiot..
trust u to b 20 yrs old but non the wiser....
happy now???

i tink its gonna b ages for me to fall in luv again...trust me...
my ego level has risen up..haha..
and im sure enuf tat in a situation like tis im not fit to like anione!
wads more falling in luv? crap!! *roll eyes*
fuck la..its nt important aniwae..
life isnt abt love alone..
so all those peeps who are goin crazy over love..wanting to commit suicide and all,i tink u shud pull urself together la..dun be lame okay? get a life...
get the point of wad life is abt...
ENJOY....

well enuf said...

tata..
happy wkend...
byeee~

No Life

2006-10-08T07:25:00.000-07:00

Mushi2.....

very bored + tired + lazy....

aislinn and ira are at the coffeeshop buying drinks...
me at hm lazing ard...i nid a life...seriously the boredom cn kill,ballz...
meeting em later but i have not bathe...
suupperrrr lazy!!
haha....woke up at 6 in the aftern juz nw...
ten hours of beauty sleep....haha...
nothin interesting happened todae so i'll guess we wait till tmr or wad la k?

till den,
nyte!

Dead Beat....

2006-10-07T14:26:00.000-07:00

Im so darn fatigue and sleepy....its 5.46 in da morn and here i am posting my very first entry...
My eyes are half-shut...i din sleep the whole of yesterdae and i swear im gonna sleep like i've nvr before rite after this...
ira is figidting ard at my cosy bed together wit kak chomel...
lol...she and her fone...forever!

for those out there just link me up if u wanna aites...
hope u guys will follow me through my journey of life here...
aites?

till den...
im hitting the bed...
toodles!